Monday Musings: Best 12 (13) of 2012

I like to gather 12 or 13 pictures to represent my year. This year, I went through my photos and found 13 pictures that perfectly represented the year 2012. Enjoy.

IMG_4793I have so enjoyed getting to know this girl better this year!

DSCN1104February- Went to see wicked

DSCN1207March- kind of boring, went to see the Hunger Games with some pals

IMG_1472April- Easter in VA with these guys

379195_311839158901828_100002272390229_714745_385664044_nMay- FABULOUS trip to MN to see these besties

IMG_1797Dear Edwina- June- the only major event

528678_490213164340814_980649278_nJuly- PHC camp, met some great friends

IMG_2220August- mission to Reading with some adorable kiddos

251678_351413164944978_1462577148_nSeptember- A Midsummer Night’s Dream (Helena)

IMG_2434October- went to see Newsies!

IMG_5113November- some beautiful, fun friends

380624_438774706177222_1994553832_nDecember- A Christmas Carol (Ensemble, Fred’s Wife)

251025_381085328644428_353689989_nDecember- some great youth group friends

This year has been such a blessed one! I like to find an area of growth, an area that needs work, and an area of blessing for each year. This past year, I grew in wanting to know God more and my faith, etc. I need to work on my kindness, thinking before I speak, and not being self-righteous/judgemental. I’ve been hugely blessed in the area of friendships and opportunities. I’ve hung out with so many people and gotten to know so many amazing friends. I pray that these friendships continue to develop and grow deeper in the Lord this coming year.

Weekend Writings: People

People are quite difficult. :)

Truth is, I am rather tired of the way people, in general, act. Don’t get me wrong, I love people and I am very social, but I am tired of the constant struggle to please people instead of God–the constant battle to be the best, the one-upping and bragging, the vanity, the fickle friendship, the gossip, the self-doubt, the self-degradation to get attention, and the self-centeredness. I am tired of sin. Re-reading this, I suppose I’m being rather illogical. Isn’t being tired of other people’s sin a kind of self-righteousness? After all, the world is full of sin, mine included. I suppose I am being self-righteous.

Because I’m wrong, too. When I am self-righteous I overlook that I am a sinner. That I (who condemn others for the same things I do) try to please people instead of God. I try to be the best. I one-up and brag. I am vain. I try not to be fickle, but I can fail. I gossip. I doubt myself, my looks, my abilities, God-given things. I think lowly of myself, the person created by God for God. I am self-centered. So it turns out that I can’t be righteous on my own. I do the same things I’m tired of in other people.

To please people overlooks the very truth of my existence. I am not the best. I have nothing to brag about except the Cross. God gave me my looks and to judge them with vanity is to doubt Him. To sin against another is to sin against God. Gossip spreads lies. To doubt this body and these abilities that God has given me is to doubt His goodness and His wisdom in giving them to me. To think lowly of myself and of others is to degrade what God has made. To be selfish is to focus more on myself than on God. To be self-righteous elevates me above others: to think more highly of myself than I ought.

At the same time, I am supposed to have a positive impact on things. God has put me here with the people who are difficult on this earth for a reason: to show them Him. If my purpose is to please God, I have a call to be different than the World. I have a call to be humble. I have a call to boast only in the Cross. I have a call to look upon Christ, not myself. I have a call to be consistent and faithful. I have a call to spread the Gospel, not gossip. I have a call to be grateful and a good steward of what God has given me. I have a call to praise God for what He has done in me and in others. I have a call to be selfless and generous. I have a call to find my righteousness in Christ.

God, help me to follow you in everything. You are glorified, You are always humble, You are always patient, You are always faithful. You are always kind, You are always loving. You are always good. You are always selfless and generous. You are the righteous One. Thank you for what you are, even when we fail.